living in color

in which i suffer but why

2011-11-25T02:50:00.000-08:00

Oh Lord have mercy mercy mercy

my muscles are so achey achey achey

and I really hungry hungry hungry

but I'm still sexy sexy sexy

HAHA

If you don't know the Mya song tune then nvm -.-

Haha but Oh My Goshh I can't even walk properly (without hurting that is =s) and I gotta perform tomorrow morning! (dancing at suria come come! =p) My poor neck shoulders torso abs back butt hamstrings etc ow ow eow. Sob. Dance half the yesterday. So unfit now.

Earlier after dance prac at citymall I gave the parking ticket guy the wrong ticket! Koyak. I wanted to pay for a Karamunsing Capital ticket, in City Mall. The guy was trying not to laugh too hard in my face I think. Then I couldn't remember where I put that ticket cuz I couldn't remember taking a ticket cuz I forgot I was the one who was drove. That shows how zonked conked out and miserable I was.

Buttt I just found out Aladdin the Musical is opens tonight in kl till January!!! Which means I mighttt be able to watchh it when I go to kl!!! Omg I'm so EXCITEDDD!! Can I can I go please please pleaseeee=D=D

Kinda brightened my sad and lonely week

Darn that reminds me of the results that came out this week =$ grrrrrrrrr

And more results out next week. eeeek. Oh please give me some good news I so need some good news right now.

3 things to remember

God is good

All the time

To me

Now off to shower. If I can get up from this chair first =p

in which it's 4 in the morning

2011-11-22T11:55:00.000-08:00

Can't. Sleep. Dammit.

Sighhh. I tried I did. Gave up after couple of hours. I so shouldn't have napped earlier -.-

So hey. How's it going =) I'm doin alright, if anyone's interested. Haha =p The annual end-year depression hasn't hit that bad this time round. Either not yet, I'm inured, or I've conquered it. I'd like to believe it's the latter. Been feeling reallyy busy these days though. And I'm not sure if I'm using time wisely.. I somehow get the feeling I'm not. Aside from right now. It's not my fault =p

Maybe it has something to do with having no mom for two weeks. As in no mom heree. So there's extra driving, taking care of meals, taking care of siblings, taking care of etcs. Gosh I feel like a mom. It's not cool. Lol.

Almost to December. Half excited half the opposite. Trying to cramp allll classes into the few days I'm around. It's such hard work just to schedule. Exhausting and mentally muddling. Plus practices for the 4th-7th trip, then the practices for the 9th-14th trip, then the practices for the 21st-23rd musical. Excluding the events themselves. Tired already. But no, I should have the all energy and much more yess =) Then there's the retreats after all that =) Maybe

Oh and there's the pracs for the dance performance this sat at suria =) Yayy.

I think I shall reattempt to go back to sleep for the trillionth time. Can't be sleeping in like a pig =/

But before that 3 wishes

I wish I could rewind time and be able to sleep properly last night

I wish I were a singer and non asian then I could be on broadway (don't think asians are allowed)

I wish I were just a little less socially inept (enough of awkward dork moments)

He gives good sleep to His beloved, whom I am one of them

in which i like

2011-09-02T01:59:00.000-07:00

in which it's easy to say bloody hard to do

2011-09-01T07:47:00.000-07:00

Forgive. Forget. Let go. Move on.
How about close to unfeasible.
Yea sure it'll take time duh.
How about a million years.
*grunt*

To everything there is a season,
A time for every purpose under heaven:
A time to be born,
And a time to die;
A time to plant,
And a time to pluck what is planted;
A time to kill,
And a time to heal;
A time to break down,
And a time to build up;
A time to weep,
And a time to laugh;
A time to mourn,
And a time to dance;
A time to cast away stones,
And a time to gather stones;
A time to embrace,
And a time to refrain from embracing;
A time to gain,
And a time to lose;
A time to keep,
And a time to throw away;
A time to tear,
And a time to sew;
A time to keep silence,
And a time to speak;
A time to love,
And a time to hate;
A time of war,
And a time of peace.

For me time is therapeutic. Most of the time. Dear time, you've really got to work for me this time.

I'm not so sure about this.

in which the black guy from adjustment bureau is so cute

2011-08-01T08:20:00.000-07:00

Harry =D
The other guys from the bureau are cute as well.. almost cartoon ish haha. And they all always look so suave with them hats and suits. And hats =)
But the black guy's especially cute! =D
And he reminds me of Hardison. From Leverage. Who is also cute =D
Who reminds me of Parker. Also from Leverage. Who is also really cute =D
Hehe. H-es and cute black guy characters.

The movie's good. Dance scenes too! Cedar Lake Company, you're awesome. I got so excited with how unbelievably beautiful and convincing Emily Blunt's dancing was, considering she's not a dancer (note word unbelievably), how perfect her feet, line, and movements were, but then I found out most of the dance sequences were body doubled and digitally put together =( Sigh. Oh well then Acacia Schachte of the Cedar Lake Company, you're awesome. And they were on SYTYCD some episodes ago wee

Count the number of times the word cute has been used haha. For the lack of a better word? Hmm no it's because they are cute =D

in which i had to give someone the whole friend speech

2011-07-30T03:07:00.000-07:00

It didn't end well.

Not exactly a speech speech but.
Couldn't swallow anything most of yesterday without crying because of my painful throat. Even drinking water was excruciating. But that's all I did for the entire morning. Everything edible in my house I couldn't eat =( Yay for yoghurt and porridge. And honey.
And if I wasn't crying from swallowing I was sniffing my nose off. Flu headache grrr
But praise the Lord I am soo much better today. Still took several naps, cuz of those soporific panadol thingys.

If I die young has a really nice fiddle part =) as morbid the song sounds

I like the music and I likey this.. bit flat but niceey =)

Grr. Oh why can't I be at least a little bit eloquent.

Title here and previous is ironic haha

Wondering if that was too much for a perm. But prefers this hair right now. Oh well what get over it not gonna ever have the whole pretty perfect hair quality going
Thank God for hair *nod wisely*

in which i've found more friends

2011-07-25T09:34:00.000-07:00

to add to my lil cohort of cny crackers, oatmealcookies, tapioca and banana chips,
meet the nameless cereal with the raisins and dried fruit thingys =D=D

Too bad I don't know what it's called
Too bad it's expensive
Too bad I don't know where to find it
anyway
=(
Feeling lonely. Or more like hungry. Haha

in which i'm not happy

2011-07-17T07:21:00.000-07:00

with how I spent my weekend -.-

Ride the bus (for hourss).
Go to practice (sit for ages waiting for soundcheck first).
Ride the bus (sit waiting in the bus for ages first).
Eat.
Ride the bus.
Sleep (try to).
Wake up ride the bus!
Eat.
Bus.
Practice.
Buss.
Eat.
Bussss.
Blah blah blah Bus! Wait. Soundcheck. Wait. wait. Perform. Wait. Perform.
Watch Sing out Asia =D (ok the only awesome time of the last 36 hours loved it).
then guess what Bus!
Eat.
You get the picture.

Oh findthetoilet should be inserted inbetweens.

Sigh pariah where.are. my.peoples.

Some people are just not worth trying to be nice to.
Just.not.worth.it.
Wasted effort.

Thailand Indonesian Filipino singers are sooosooogoood =)

Watch movie crave failll -.- Ringinn phone dropped under table, bro 'called me up', slept through it all. Argh.

in which i'm off to kudat

2011-07-14T18:34:00.000-07:00

for 'bonding' with the orchestra, sun, wind whatever vagarious weather. And of course for bonding with the um tip. Just hope the wind does not always blow in my disfavor (that likes to happen). Sun I don't really mind =) but worried for my violin.
Wish me fun! eek

Sigh past two weeks have not been eating no dinner only suppers. So every 12 midnight I'll be eating after I get back. Notagood! =/ I'm so sure I've been putting on weight. Grrr haha.
Not liking my new schedules

But pretty excited about the Lipdub BTS =) we've been having so much fun editing it =D Just hope we get out of the stuck don't-know-what-how-to-put-what-next period. And reallyyy hope people will like it

Wishing fun to those who are goings for the run
And fun to me!

in which it's so embarrassing

2011-07-13T00:54:00.000-07:00

Was stuck at a t-juction outside my house, waiting really long for the many cars to stop coming, then a nice motorcyclist stops and gestures for me to go
then my engine died-ed -.-"
So fail! *blushes and hides*

Later on was stuck behind some car at another juction waiting real long to turn, and I was tapping the sides of the steering wheel, I think along with the song I was singing, anyway I was tapping, or more like drumming
then I drummed the steering's center and horned real loud -.-"
The cars in front and behind were stuck along with me who in their right mind would honk??

How embarrassing.

And the next day, today, was trying to side park and almost reversed into the car behind me. It held down and bellowed it's horn for like half a minute. I freaked out. Drove off to find another place to side park. I didn't see that white car! It was too short =p

More car fiascos ={

in which i had the most inerestin conversation

2011-06-12T09:15:00.000-07:00

Really unexpected. And weird (and long, almost an hour). Yet amusing. Haha. Who knew. =p

Feeling sad again.
News flash.

in which i'm weightless

2011-06-07T17:24:00.000-07:00

No, I'm pretty sure I've actually gained some. Been eating lots these past weeks but not exercising as much. And by 'not much' I mean really none. Up till this week. There was a day in which I basically just slept ate napped ate etc. Like the entire day. It was horrible. I guess it was after the weekend I ran on just 3-5 hours of sleep (but I managed to catch the sunrise both mornings at camp!). And before that had insomnia or something the whole week. I guess hence the narcoleptic days.
Now I'm good though. But should be just abit wary how much I eat =p Needa lose some avoirdupois. =p

Anyway the reason for the title is this song. Natasha Bedingfield, big fan =)
She has so many awesome live versions but I particularly like this one. The music and sounds are so interesting. And I love her voice and the way she phrases=)
Enough said

I have to keep reminding myself
I'm not like anyone else
That's my face on my ID
That makes me V.I.P.
No one exactly like this
No one with my fingerprints
No one can touch you like me
No I can't fake what you see

They told me: "Girl, to get you're way, you've got to be a bitch"
They say that: "A guy won't get the girl, if he's not filthy rich"
You stop with little changes,
'Til you don't know who you are
Surround yourself with friends
Who only call you a superstar

The sky is the limit
And I just wanna flow
Free as a spirit on a journey of hope
Cut the strings and let me go
I'm weightless, I'm weightless
Millions of balloons heading to the ground
Weight of the world tries to hold us down
Cut the strings and let me go
I'm weightless, I'm weightless

All the things I held in my fist
If I don't let go, I don't exist
They've become the things that define me
How I look and the things to buy me
That's not important anymore
I feel me rising off the floor
Light as a feather, I'm carefree
I'm weightless

The sky is the limit
And I just wanna flow
Free as a spirit on a journey of hope
Cut the strings and let me go
I'm weightless, I'm weightless
Millions of balloons heading to the ground
Weight of the world tries to hold us down
Cut the strings and let me go
I'm weightless, I'm weightless

They told me: "Girl, to get you're way, you've got to be a bitch"
They say that: "A guy won't get the girl, if he's not filthy rich"
It seems to me you're so heavy,
And weighs you down like lead
Don't wanna be someone I hate
'Cause that don't make no sense

=)

Another reason I'm over the moon, I AM ME won!!! ABDC Season 6 champions Woohooo! Chachi =D Philip =D Awesome cre a tive hip hop choreo dancing =D
And, SYTYCD Season 8 has started!!! Woohooo! Omg it's so good, 3 episodes and I'm already over the moon =D Ecstatic. Can't wait for Vegas week and top 20 =D

Been stalking episodes. Hehe =)

in which days go by

2011-05-18T11:34:00.000-07:00

We think about tomorrow then it slips away
We talk about forever but we've only got today

'Cause days go by
I can feel like 'em flying
Like a hand out the window in the wind
the cars go by
It's all we've been given
So you better start livin' right now
'Cause days go by

So take 'em by the hand
They're yours and mine
Take 'em by the hand
And live your life
Take 'em by the hand
Don't let 'em all fly by

in which cockroaches have no respect for birthdays

2011-05-17T11:30:00.000-07:00

They don't.
Hahas

in which i only have a few days left to live

2011-05-15T08:26:00.000-07:00

as an 18 year old ='(

I don't know what to do with myself. How does one spend the last days being 18, in the end days. Haha.

Subject change, someone asked me today what I did this weekend. I listed them out, and this is what happened:
-classes
-practice
-movie
-exercise
-practice

-classes
-practice
-classes
-practice
-watch sytycd
-practice
-youth
-practice

It kinda goes on.
Sad or what. Oh food and sleep slot in somewhere betwixt and between.

in which i can't wait

2011-05-11T01:49:00.000-07:00

I am so willing tomorrow to go faster
so I can get it all over with

in which i am concerned for my face

2011-05-10T03:39:00.001-07:00

Some people really bother about how they are reputed.

I don't blame them.

Hate it when I know I'm not doing a good job. Can't live with it. Makes me so insecure. >(
Ishes

Am grateful for people. And exercise. And music. <3

in which i will

2011-05-06T00:17:00.000-07:00

memorize that 68-page piano concerto by.. the time it's supposed to be performed? (arghhh bloody) I have what like 30 days
not land from a pirouette with a sickled foot! I can-not bust my ankle again
not be lazy to do insanity? (after my ankle's alright that is)

I don't know how to make all vids be not cut off on the right side =(
Most of these videos have no better quality versions so =(

The side/after effects of :
being one of the best pianists in the world
or
over-practicing
This is what happens. Or this is what Lang Lang does in his free time. It's a good de-stressing nostrum. Maybe just for him.

Eight 8+- foot long pianos. Wayy cool =)
Audio not in sync =/ it was either audio or bad video

Yea dodgy hand held video camera stuff. No one's supposed to record in there anyways.
Gosh they have these kind of apps on iPads now? Haha. Kinda cool =) albeit ephemeral interest-wise. I mean you won't wanna keepp playing it for long. But now everyone can play the Flight of the Bumble Bee! As long as you've got fast fingers that know how to tap the screen. Haha

This girl is reediculouss. If there was an insanity for pianists, this would be it. Insanee. My fingers and arms feel so exhausted just watching her -.-

Yea the BumbleBee is so overrated especially on YouTube =p and I was supposed to be listenin to that concerto. Yea that

in which that should be me

2011-05-01T07:50:00.000-07:00

=/=s=(
Nothing to do with the song but I just really like the vocals. And Rascal Flatts.

in which if only

2011-04-27T23:03:00.000-07:00

Money grew on trees.
They would all look sooo pretty don't you think? =D
Then I would be able to go to the all and more awesome violin masterclasses by the Bulgarian/Philippino/Exotic people =D
Also, everyone would be so encouraged and motivated to do gardening, aye? Everyone would be so in to it.
Yes, I think it's an awesome idea for trees to be lucrative, literally, no?
If only

Something spewed something all over right at the gate. It's white it's mushy it's dirty. We can't tell if it came from an animal's front or rear. Whatever it is, wherever it came from, it's de-skusting.

in which i takes faith, trust, and pixie dust

2011-03-14T06:11:00.000-07:00

and fingers crossed tight.

Just kidding. Minus the last two.

7 1/2 hours of tandem classes back to back. And I survived. I'm awesome. *quotes message in my inbox* Because God let me be =)

Was bloody hungry though

in which i was born a champion

2011-03-08T22:30:00.000-08:00

Pretty epic =D

in which i almost faint

2011-03-02T06:02:00.000-08:00

I did. I saw stars. Everywhere. It's either because of the lack of sleep, hence easily extra fatigued, or because I didn't eat enough the whole day, or the unwonted headache earlier during the day, or maybe the air-con was too cold while we were all sweaty and what not, or a lack of sugar? I was then given a sweet haha. Or it's just wholly those pirouettes' fault.
I was feeling alright, till after 4 sets of pose pirouettes, when my head felt a tad (but I thought negligibly) more dizzy than usual. I still managed to get through the pas de bourees but once we came to the 3rd jumping exercise my head was dreadfully spinningg. It suddenly felt like the north pole, the lights suddenly felt blinding and everyone else was glowing, I felt like throwing up just a little, water didn't help, I turned pale and pallid my legs were jelly-fying my head weighed 5 tons, and all I saw were stars. It was worse than running the 7k run for the first time without much training years ago. And worse than standing in the field under the hot sun during sports day last time.
Anyway I was so on the verge of fainting. Never been happier to sit down.
Weird sudden and not fun =/

Ooh it's March already =o

in which it goes to show i can't be trusted

2011-02-19T00:48:00.000-08:00

to read a simple text message properly. Sunday becomes Saturday and driver becomes annoyed. Gosh I feel so silly haha.

And on a different note, that was a debacle of epic proportions.
And that, is an understatement of epic proportions.

Changing the topic for the third time, what is it with misunderstandings and miscommunications lately??

in which i thank you

2011-02-14T06:13:00.000-08:00

you've given me alot to think abouts

in which i wonder why

2011-02-13T06:43:00.000-08:00

feel beleaguered and beset with bulls
feel like using the secret unicorn

in which i just about lose my bananas

2011-02-11T20:45:00.000-08:00

UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
!@#$%^&*()_+!@#$%^&*
I'LL TEAR YOU APART, I SWEAR!!

in which i make up my excuses for not blogging

2011-01-31T22:36:00.000-08:00

Here are my so-called reasons =p

been busy (much to busy to blog about the busyness I've been busy with)
haven't really felt like it (albeit I've wanted to update since 2010)
and I can't think of anymore (I've never felt more convincing)
procrastination (pinky promises of giving a real update soon is overrated and completely nullified)

So There.

5. oh and (gettin lil desperate for a longer list) been spending time with cny crackers =D

Reunitedd. Haha. Also reunited with sorethroats to be. Thank God for honey chrysanthemum and their cohorts. Haha
And exercise. Or Imma be fat by the next time you see me.

How's the new year so far? Can't say I'm in love with it. Not hating on it either (me thinks it's actually the one hating on me). No la. I shan't let it. So there.

Happy Blessed Chinese New Year Everyabodys =)
Hugs
Jo

in which it's for the sake of:

2010-12-31T05:42:00.000-08:00

1. the last post of the year (it won't be 2010 ever again)
2. making it a nice total even number of posts (30 entries!) =D
3. festivity (it's new year's eve)
4. hehe

OH fun fact:

A new year's eve gift is called a Hogmanay. It's also the name for New Year's Eve in Scotland, and the word comes from the Old French aguillanneuf , meaning "last day of the year."

Interesting, no? =)

I'm not going to reminisce or rant of this year's happenings or highlights.. not right now.
Not going to divulge on the things I'm glad to have achieved or disappointed to have missed.. not right here.
Neither am going to list my new year resolutions.. well that's because I haven't thought about them yet, and not sure if I'm going go through all that trouble, as they never really worked for me (or maybe it's the other way round =p).

So, having said what I won't blog about, what I'm going to blog about, is well, um...
I have no friggin idea.

Well this is awkward.
Haha

Suddenly I feel this pressure to end the post of the year with a bang or grandiosity or something. Haha. Anyway whatever, end of post. =p

And still on the previous post's note of gratefulness, I am grateful how God has just alwayss always been there no matter what, and I'm grateful for all the boons, experiences good or sucky (of course I have never said it then at those moments but), and for everything else. And there's only one thing left to do, and that is KeepMovingForward! Tribute to Meet the Robinsons =) have I ever mentioned how I loved that movie haha oh and How to Train Your Dragon! And I'm being shooed off so that movie can be watched.

So Happy New Year 2011 Everyabody!!
Hugs
Jo
=)

in which i'm grateful

2010-12-28T11:31:00.000-08:00

"The healthiest of all human emotion is gratitude"
~ Uiseh =p no that's not the quoter can't remember his name haha

Anyway

Thank you God =) The examiner liked me and gave an 85 yesss. Hehe. I honestly did not expect it. Was really quitee disappointed with my performance, so I am surprisedd. In a good way. =)

End of home alone 6. This past week been hanging out some. Ok lots. Hehe. Funnn. Chillin in upperstar till one something in the morn, drinking failed starbucks (ok not they're fault), getting up earlyy to go to the airport (yes 7something am is super early at this season), walkin round and roundd and *gasp* rounddd malls (ok not completely included in the 'funnn') haha
oh and dancing hip hop again.
YAY.
Ughh I'm getting tired of not doin hip hop for sooo long then blogging to say oh how I've missed it oh-so-much -.-" haha need someething here in KK!! Grr. Classes concerts a performinggroup oh come on! Sigh seemss like such a chimerical hope =(

Right. I'm grateful. Grateful for the sun, I'm grateful for the moon.. *quote American Sweethearts* =p

I've got loadsss more to update. Just need to finddd the more loadss of time to update. Or makeee the more loadss. Hehe.

First things first.

Spot the 2 differences. No not the mess - ppls were packing and baking and not keeping stuff off floor. But if you can and get it right -you don't even need a careful perusal I'm sure it's blatant- you win a million dollars yay.
Haha an after MerryChristmas and an almost HappyNewYear =)
(almost to the new, not the happy ;p)

in which i'm feeling so sad

2010-12-05T21:35:00.000-08:00

=(
just really really sad
='(

pics ups soons?

in which i'll make him see i have confidence in me

2010-10-26T18:34:00.001-07:00

That Sound of Music song's been in my head since last night. Haha. Veryy suitable. Sortaa? It's stuck in my head anyhow

What will this day be like? I wonder.
What will my future be? I wonder.
It could be so exciting to be out in the world, to be free
My heart should be wildly rejoicing
Oh, what's the matter with me?

I've always longed for adventure
To do the things I've never dared
And here I'm facing adventure
Then why am I so scared

A captain with seven children
What's so fearsome about that?

Oh, I must stop these doubts, all these worries
If I don't I just know I'll turn back
I must dream of the things I am seeking
I am seeking the courage I lack

The courage to serve them with reliance
Face my mistakes without defiance
Show them I'm worthy
And while I show them
I'll show me

So, let them bring on all their problems
I'll do better than my best
I have confidence they'll put me to the test
But I'll make them see I have confidence in me

Somehow I will impress them
I will be firm but kind
And all those children, Heaven bless them!
They will look up to me

And mind me with each step I am more certain
Everything will turn out fine
I have confidence the world can all be mine
They'll have to agree I have confidence in me

I have confidence in sunshine
I have confidence in rain
I have confidence that spring will come again
Besides which you see I have confidence in me

Strength doesn't lie in numbers
Strength doesn't lie in wealth
Strength lies in nights of peaceful slumbers
When you wake up -- Wake Up!

It tells me all I trust I lead my heart to
All I trust becomes my own
I have confidence in confidence alone
Oh help

I have confidence in confidence alone
Besides which you see I have confidence in me!

And not only in me. My hope is in God and not in my circumstances =)
(don't remember where that came from)

Psalm 27 for the 27th =)
..the one thing, that I will get through the next 7 hours!.. ={

Here we go. Go go go Jo!
omg hahaha

in which i'm not supposed to be here

2010-10-19T23:24:00.000-07:00

In a week. A weeekk! (haha bridewars) Anyway yea, one week. Eeeek.

Oh I just can't wait for it to be over.

Been in the broadway musical mood these days =) Singing in the Rain, My Fair Lady, West Side Story, etc etc too lazy to name all awesome them =) Must be the Joseph rehearsals haha. But I'm not supposed to be watching all that now! Arghh. And most definitely not supposed to be here blogging!

Shoo Jo shooooo. Stop being a truant.

in which for the next 3 weeks everyone shall be praying for Joanna

2010-10-06T22:56:00.000-07:00

or else

oh and her pianist as well
ok fine and her fellow candidate as well
of course including the examiner

blistered fingertips, ringing left ear, squeak screech yeah

then success and felicity!

then moving on

will do a 'proper' update. soon. after october. don't forget! *points to post title*
=)

in which i could really use a wish right now

2010-09-06T06:02:00.000-07:00

Or two. Times a million.
But not just a velleity

Sorry dear blog you've been so neglected. Same with my dear journal. =( sigh

HELP me I'm in holiday mode!! =/=/ Feeling indolent lackadaisical ennui-ed. NOT good. Quotidian responsibilities and to-dos, what responsibilities and to-dos? Aghh noo.

Maybe it's to do with the tiring weekend. Didn't sleep entire friday, we were up late LATE doing our cell farewell scrapbook -it really did live up to it's name; it was like this hodgepodge of all kinds of hied um, art? Yea.. bad idea to start just the night before she leaves.. next time take a week or something =p Anyway so we were at em's till 4something in the morning, then went home and started on my page and letter. I wrote till the sun rose.. like suddenly I looked up and outside was all bright =o I did manage to steal some sleep from 7.30-8 that morn, before splashing my face with water and heading off to class.

Before noon headed to the airport to see bigjo off =( and give our pretty gift of our hard work - the reason why we didn't sleep. Or the other way.. ok I'm confused which makes sense. Haha. But now no more bigjo =( over here, I mean.

We then went walking round CP with yoyo.. to try cheer us up.. though we were all half stoned ppls. I only managed to steal another half hour of sleep later before splashing my face once more to go out for a meeting.. which turned out to be hardly salutary and pretty useless -.-

The next day, Sunday, had to get up early to get dressed and start for Karambunai. KK Music Fest. To accompany lil Alton. And that was the entire day- running on those few hours of sleep's energy and somewhat of a breakfast, alternating between freezing and not (every single room walkway and corridor had different temperatures from stuffywarm to wintercold), in heels from like 9am-9pm (yess my poor poor shoes).

The only time I got really excited or excited atall was toward the end of the day - awesome extremely good looking family of freakin talent =D 6 kids below the age of 12, of which 4 can play piano, violin, and sing. Like nobody's business. They took the bulk of the winnings, placing in every single category. Awesomely talented. And not to mention super cute and blonde. Sigh =)
The performing guest group of harmonicas were really good as well. Thank God for them and the vontrappfamily. They made my day =) After putting myself through the rest of the festival. I do support this thingy, but I was more tired of hearing the countless Bourees Gavottes and whatnots -.-

I gotta snap out of zis blue. I gotta lot of stuff to be doings. I gotta aghh

in which i'm so looking forward to the next few wednesday morns

2010-07-21T01:20:00.000-07:00

Anecdote of lil sis' trip to the dentist.

Nurse 1: So we're pulling two today..
Jos: [sits up in alarm wide eyed] Hah??

As if she thought she had come to ride the adjustable chair.

Jos: [continues shaking head vehemently] Dowan!! (how most people combine the words don't & want together) Will it hurt??
Nurse 1: Little bit oni
Jos: Dowann!! Can we pull just one tooth?
Nurse 1: [kindly but firmly] No, today we pulling two
Jos: [reiterates and echoes her refusal still shaking head]
Nurse 2: [comes over and joins nurse 1 in trying to convince her to open her mouth]
Nurse 1: Ok how about we do one first, then we see..
Jos: So how many altogether?
Nurse 1: Two

Not so smart an answer, as she wasn't any calmer and still wouldn't open her mouth except to repeat how she doesn't want and it'll hurt.

Nurse 1: Ok we'll do it slowly..
Jos: [fear accruing] That means it'll be even more painful?!
Nurses: [chorus in unison] Nooo!
Me: [almost laughs out loud]

Omg I wanted to slap her. But that would just have been counterproductive, so I didn't. I just um, encouraged the nurses =p She didn't listen to me anyway

Jos: [clenches jaw obstinately with an i'm going to burst into tears face any moment face]
Nurses: [patience wearing thin]

Finallyy she cooperated, after she insisting someone holds her hand, after more querulous dowans and countless coaxings from two weary nurses and a waspish me.

After the whole ado was over, as we were walking out
Nurse 1: So she still has about 8 more teeth to extract..
Jos: [becomes wide eyed once more]
Me: [pushes her out the door]

While waiting to be picked up
Me: Are you always this uncooperative at the dentist's?
Jos: [big grin with cotton in mouth, nods happily] =D
Me: -.-"

Ok then I really wanted to slap her =p She's such a BOF

*imagines 4 more weeks of this* Oh my goodness.

Hahaha.

in which i feel

2010-07-11T01:28:00.000-07:00

I feel sick.
Fatigued and anhydrous. If that makes sense. But can't sleep and have already drunk about a whole swimming pool =S=S

I feel bad.
Sooo bad. Full of great compunction. As melodramatic as it sounds. I didn't mean to!! Really! =(=(

Could use some cheering up. ='C

Despicable Me might just do the trick. Cheering up I mean. Despite the dichotomic title. It's SO cute!! Especially the lil girl. She's SO adorable!! Like I could watch her the whole day *dreamy sigh* I know. She's an animated character. But still.. *another dreamy sigh*

in which i'm too tired

2010-06-27T07:45:00.000-07:00

To do anything.
Too flat knocked out to even take a shower. Or sleep. =s Sit in front of the com, that I can do. Haha. LETHARGIC.

Holiday season's over. Not that I had much of a break. The diff between my holidays and my regular days, siblings are home almost all the time, it's time for house cleaning, other ppl may be a lil free-er to hang out, and the fact that it's called holidays.

So here's what I did diff these past days/weeks, besides my quotidian doings, as it has been 'holidays'

cleaned room
babysitted more
drove less
went to camp
got some really depressing news
watched the ohsocharmingtalentedgoodlooking Jaden Smith
played housekeeper
cleaned house
had nightly 4hour orchestra pracs
met some cute guys
=D

yes she posed xactly the same for at least half a doz pictures =) like copy and paste.
& we love frenchfries. Tis a salubrious foodss =)

*yawn*

in which this is home alone 4

2010-06-23T08:02:00.000-07:00

Day 3:

Photocopying = going back and forth from house to shop (due to not knowing when it opens), walking tons (due to waiting and parking car far far away), building muscles (due to the many heavy books)

Cleaning house = runnynose (due to sneezing from the dust), stickysweatyitchy (also due to the dust), notsopleasantdemeanor (it's not on the funnestthingsintheworld list)

Orchestra prac = super hot (due to the no air con), screeching (due to the super high registers reaching up to the ether. stratosphere. whatever it's freaking high!)

Man I (we) sucked!! Am so pissed -.-"

Hahaha ffuunnn =p yeaap. right.

Freedom and Independence. Nah actually just mainly the latter.

in which there are only 2 words

2010-06-16T06:56:00.000-07:00

God.help.
='(

I.
don't.
know.

in which i am befuddled to the max

2010-06-10T07:32:00.000-07:00

Suddenly, someone says to me
Someone 1#: "Well done,
Me: *starts thinking ok hmm what did I do ..*
Someone 1#: "..you're growing up to be a fine young lady"
Me on the outside: uhh.. *smiles*
Me on the inside: ehh?? =0 what?
One rarely hears stuff like that first thing walking into church on a Sunday morn

Suddenly, someone I've never spoken to before and only seen a time or two before comes and walks along side me
Someone 2#: "Hi! So have you found your job yet? =)
Me: Sorry?
Someone 2#: *carries conversation as if we've been friends since forever*
Me on the outside: uhh.. =D
Me on the inside: *whotheheckishe whotheheckishe!*
Was so taken aback had no freaking idea how to tell him 'um I kinda don't know you'

And then Suddenly, the most unbearable and rudest curmudgeon in the entire cosmos who has been nothing but insolent and cantankerous to me, is suddenly pleasant =o for the first time didn't find anything to complain about
Me on the outside: huhmm =)
Me on the inside: completely stupefied =O

HAHA the weirdest vagaries have been happenin to me I tell you

Half past eleven close the midnight and need to start packing for camp. See you after the weekend =)

in which some are taken for granted

2010-06-01T23:22:00.000-07:00

perfunctorily and all too often

like a maid/janitor/cleaner
and a mattress

don't have neither atm
haha

Trashing the Camp by Phil Collins & NSync is such a cute song =)

it which it was yesterday

2010-05-18T05:02:00.000-07:00

Not today ;p

Hey for the first time from 18 year old Jo. So.. *cue Avril Lavigne's HowDoesItFeel* I'll tell you. Not a bit different. Xactly the same.

Some pretty rose pictures C= Not that I love roses -I don't actually. Not a flower fanatic.
But not that I don't love the person who sent it. C=
Plus, I get to showcase/off my *ahem* artistic photographing skills q=

& cake pic or two

& a song for the occasion

My Best Days Are Ahead Of Me Lyrics

by Danny Gokey

Blowing out the candles
on another birthday cake
Old enough to look back and laugh at my mistakes
Young enough to look at the future and like what I see
My best days are ahead of me

Life hasn’t always been a party
But mostly it’s been good
There’s only one or two things that I’d change if I could
I don’t get lost in the past or get stuck in some sad memory
My best days are ahead of me

Age is nothing but a number
Sometimes I have to wonder
What does it really mean
But hey I’m still putting it together
I keep getting better
If I keep getting better
I can be whatever I want to be
My best days are ahead of me

I’ve got sunsets to witness
Dreams to dance with
Beaches to walk on
And lovers to kiss
There’s a whole lot of world out there that I can’t wait to see
My best days are ahead of me

My best days are ahead of me

(=

in which it is tomorrow

2010-05-16T22:26:00.000-07:00

My one wish
that I could stay 17 on the 17th

Matthew 6:33-34
Perhaps a verse or two to get by

18
here we go Jo
=)

in which it feels rather silly

2010-05-06T01:25:00.001-07:00

To be hanging clothes outside (under the porch), and it starts drizzling.. then raining, and soon pouring cats and dogs.. And you're hanging clothes.. in the rain. It feels rather silly. Even if you are under the porch.

Sorry blog. No time to blog. Not that you're obsolescent.

One week.

Practice practice practice! Pray pray pray! Programme notes!!

Which is better, to have to add more paragraphs and what nots to reach the required word count, or to have to curtail and cut down in order to reach the required word count? agh =/

ttyl!

in which i slip and fall outside my doorstep in front of my house and things

2010-03-18T09:29:00.000-07:00

Glad to entertain whoever was watching.
(No one was which is why I am glad)
Hopefully. I was unfortuitously in a skirt.
Maybe I should next time get flip flops that have grips on the bottom. Or consciously circumvent evil water puddles on slippery cement floor. =)

Sigh this is so good

If you haven't already surmised, the prop is supposed to represent his addiction, which is drinking, as inferred by the bottle looking thingy.
Tabitha & Napoleon, ingenious.

Gahh so wanna get back ='( Wait. Reiteration. Really really really want to. *million exclamation points*

in which i can't even smile

2010-03-15T00:10:00.000-07:00

A really (times a hundred) bad (times a hundred) day.
I'm stark mad. It's stark crappy. Shitty. Take your pick.
Need I say more?

Philippians 4:4. Always. What. Really?

I think I'm trying. And miserably failing.

in which music is the beautiful-est thing

2010-02-17T01:22:00.000-08:00

The tv series Glee has such awesomely sung songs =)

but

AUGUST RUSH <3
I love it. Period. (followed by a million exclamation marks)
Movie, awesome.
Music, pulchritudinous. Sound-wise meaning. (another million concomitant exclamation marks with font size times 1oo)
The Freddie Highmore, too cute for words.
The 11 year old Jamia Simone Nash's voice, too awesome for words.
<3

The movie, music, and everything are so ineffably awesomely BEAUTIFUL, all adjectives are understatements.
Go. Watch. It.
=)

in which i don't wanna know

2010-02-12T05:03:00.000-08:00

Idon'twannaknowresults!!!

Albeit it was a whole month ago, here are ChargeUp Conference 2010 trip pictures.

Going there day

I know you're bored. I love the skies.

After walking round and round in the mall

Bernard's awesome photograghy skills =p

Day1 of conference

It was just the end of day1 and we already looked so drained

Day3 of conference
In which we got sunburnt from the duh sun

Half sitting half kneeling. So unbalanced =/

Day4 of conference

After dinner after a failed attempt to watch Avatar 3d haha

Going home day

Lost in the central station =p

Waiting at the central station

Still waiting at the.. yea

Yes? No? yes? noo haha

So tired till retarded haha

Sigh. Chinese New Year dinners + relatives = A great deal of awkward moments, facades and ennui.

in which you make me smile

2010-02-07T20:58:00.000-08:00

Been my past week's theme song. To who? The Chinese New Year crackers. =)=D My grandma gave 3 containers of them, and I ate like 70% of the whole lot. He-he-he. Which means the rest of my family at the remaining 30%. Which means each of my family members at 20% of the 30% of the whole lot. He-he. 70 isn't that much? Do the math. Place the percentages in juxtaposition. Yes my family's mad at me. But.. he he
And funnily, the song is sung by Uncle Cracker. Oh it's so meant to be, crackers and me.
On top of that I've been eating so much and often these past weeks. Like whenever I'm not out or sleeping, I'm eating. I've gotten better this week though (probably cuz there are no more beloved crackers), not running to food that much. But then again, it's just the 2nd day of the week... =)
Exercise has to be my 2nd best friend. The 1st is food of course. Haha

The newborn youth media team showcased our first news episode this month =) I didn't get to see the premiere, but I've just watched it on the internet, and, it's pretty dang funny =) Great job and round of applause to all of us =) Of course, we can do better. We can only get better. I hope. Haha

Anyway, hilarious and ingenious Igudesman and Joo are back! To my blog, that is.

In the 1st video he has an emotional breakdown, in the 2nd they have an affray. Now, who says classical music is a total bore? =p=p

in which i so feel i so did not do so good

2010-02-04T06:52:00.000-08:00

Sigh. Oh well I'll find out in exactly a week's time. *inaudible shriek(s)*
A not-so-random song. (Rendition of Auld Lang Syne)

Should SAT scores be forgot
And never brought to mind
Should SAT scores be forgot
And acceptance letters you'll find.

For all your test prep days gone by
For all your test prep nights
May all your scores be high enough
For supreme bragging rights.

And surely you'll use test vocab
Inside those college walls
And geometry skills will be employed
Down at the old pool hall.

For all your test prep days gone by
For all your test prep nights
May you suffer no more SATs
In this season merry and bright

Amen.

Pics and vids comin soon. =)

Yes pictures are overthedue. So is this post.

in which there are 11 days 15 hours 12 minutes left

2010-01-11T05:34:00.000-08:00

ONLY. !
That's *gesticulates length with hands* this close. !
To be more specific, there are 11 days 15 hours 26 minutes minus 5 days something hours i'mnotbotheredtocounthowmany minutes left.
Which means that's *gesticulates even shorter length* this close. !

It kinda feels like this.

Nevertheless I shall remain calm insofar as I am able.
And yes I want to play like her.
And I'm supposed to start packing.
And finish the unattractive thing called an essay.
And have fun starting the day after tomorrow.
And do a many other things.
And get off the computer.
And I shall see you after next -or the next- week.

in which the year isn't over till i say it's over

2010-01-02T19:50:00.000-08:00

Haha. I didn't wanna post anything else earlier because I didn't wanna spoil the nice total number of blog posts in 2009 -50 entries! Ahaha. I didn't want an odd and uneven 51 =p

So happy new year a day after. Well.. it's 2010. Sad. Idon'twannagobacktowork! At first I was not willing the new year to commence. During the last few 2009 hours I actually got mad at the clock for nearing 12am. Eventuallyy I reluctantlyy accepted the inevitable.
2010 is here. Yeaduh. So. Bring it on.

Speaking of bringing it on, there's the onerous job of posting thee picturesss from my camera. Be afraid. I am =p To (try to) create an illusion of less photos, and for some convenience's sake, I've uploaded the pics, in chronological order in different posts. Keep scrollin down. =)

caroling and 1borneo day

2010-01-02T19:45:00.000-08:00

Night actually.

haha look at the ghostly mannequin !

christmas and before day

2010-01-02T19:40:00.000-08:00

Christmas Eve - rehearsalll

ballroom deco

Christmas nursery room deco

their *tada* costumes

their *tada* costumes

our *tada* costumes

Christmas Day

o.o

=)

My legs are not turned out and don't even look pointed =C

<3

*cue WestSideStory song* "I feel pretty oh so pretty"

our costumes look like such anachronisms

after the dance

I was busy at the help desk writing receipts to impatient customers so I didn't get to take moree pictures. =p After that went to watch Sherlock Holmes (in which 3 of us got kicked by some rude curmudgeon just because we came in late and had to go past him to sit - most indecent of him - on Christmas day too!). Yea MerryChristmas to him. Went home for a while before going to aunt's house for Christmas dinner.

boxing and after day

2010-01-02T19:35:00.000-08:00

At Em's gorgeous house. Had dinner, had 'cell', had cake, had photo session, had EagleEye and more food, had longer photo and chilling session. Went home 2something am.

she was the pariah but we let her join us albeit she isn't in our cell cuz she helped us take group pics =p haha no she can join us anytimee =p

after our movie ended (about 1am)

silly

sleepy

haha shialabouf zealots

ahaha

the Enoch pianist guy's concert that night

help desk candids

bro's beach and birth day

2010-01-02T19:30:00.005-08:00

Dinner

With ppl at upperstar after a failed attempt to watch Avatar

new year's eve and island day

2010-01-02T19:30:00.003-08:00

arrived after 9, nice and sunny

here cometh the dark clouds

here the rain cometh, hence we dry off change and wait in the chalet

the rain go-eth hence we adjourn to the dock to wait for the boat

the rain re-cometh

the boat cometh, we bid bel farewell, but we don't leaveth
we stay in the rockin boat for like 30mins waiting for other ppl to friggin come
our boat guy drives us around that side of the island, back to the dock, goes to off to find the tardy tourists, comes back without any, takes us around the side again, and back again...
we still stay in the giddfying boat
we wave to bel goodbye countless times
we take more pictures

we finally finally head home

when I closed my eyes to sleep that night I could still feel the undulation of the sea from sitting for soo loong rocking in the boat. haha

in which you are invited

2009-12-20T18:44:00.000-08:00

Up till Iforgotwhen, some day just before the 25th, besides selling cute lil teddybears, Skyliners are caroling in 1Borneo. Different zones take turn each night, and my zone is assigned the 22nd.
On Christmas Day we'll be having service in the grand ballroom, in which you'll get to see me, for the first (and the last *crossfingers*) time in a snowychristmaspeanutbutterandjam costume. Yes I give you alll permission to laugh. But you're gonna have to come in order to seee. And I pray my knee holds.
The outfit is gonna look not quite but something like this
(brace oneself)

No not him, her.
By the way she is the SYTYCD season 5 winner - awesomeawesome dancer.

Seeing my costume everyday where it was chucked downstairs not to be touched as much as possible, I think I'm becoming more inured to it. But stilll, how am I gonna wear what I'm gonna wear?? Sigh. Just have to keep reminding/psyching myself: it's only like for a minute thirty, and it's just a couple of thousand people. No big deal! =x

Two days after, in lieu of a normal Sundaymorning service, we're having an evening service, with the guest pianist from US. Am glad I'm not doing anything for that. I can relax and do nothing. =)

Why are these events being blogged? Read post's title above. =)

Ooh I got the unabridged piano score of George Gershwin's Rhapsody in Blue!! I've always wanted to play it, from the first time I watched Disney's Fantasia, when they put a really cute 20something minute cartoon to the whole piece(except that was with orchestra). Been faithfully and laboriously practicing for the past half week since I got the book. It's freakin hard!! Harder than anything I've everr played. Out of the 30 pages, the farthest I've gotten to within the total of approximately 8 hours I've practiced is page 18. The recording makes it sound and seem easy. *genuflects in contsernation yet awe* Goal: Conquer Gershwin!

Upcoming days will be filled with rehearsals and what nots. So in advance
A Very Merry Christmas ! = )

in which i spread the holiday spirit

2009-12-16T06:33:00.000-08:00

As of 10something this morning, I'm officially class-free for the rest of the year! Yay *gets up and dances* Hence i now have more time! Time
To study more. *sits back down*

Less than 10 days to Christmas. Wowee. So soon.
These are here to put one in the convivial season mode; to attempt to proselytize unfestive stoics. *points to self*

Acapella's awesome =) On the note of the holiday season, here are "holidaypictures".

Farewell movie outing-without the movie

the kid's face is freakishly gargantuan

background green is hideous

Birthday dinner

some of bro's artistic shots

Beach party

the fallen tree trunk that was so fun to walk on

haha cutesiness

in which i state the obvious-es

2009-12-10T06:20:00.000-08:00

(Obvious-ee #1)
I've created a Facebook account.
No, not out of ennui. Definitely not out of peer pressure. Coercion? You can say that =p
I don't know how some people religiously sedulously spend so much quality time with Facebook everysingleday. There's nothing much to do there (besides clicking the confirm friend button). Since I created my account, some weeks ago, I can still count the number of times I've logged in. Ok not really. Haha

(Obvious-ee #2)
I've not been blogging since the 1st of November.
What have I been doing lately? Studying, working, listening to music. That's pretty much about it. No time to blog, no impetus/incentive to either. =p

What have I been doing before lately? Worrying...
About the pain from my 'overstretched' leg muscles I mentioned in my last post.. it didn't stop there. From my hamstrings it went into my hip then down to my knees, pain accruing and muscles weakening as time went on. The bones just won't stop cracking creaking squeaking. The torturous pain slowlyy lessened, (either that or my threshhold of pain slowly strengthened) but it was still there. I went to the hospital once, and several times to physio. Was really worried. Extremely. So worried that worried is an understatement.
I know.. the most opportune moment to exercise faith. T'was hard. Keeping a positive and believing mindset that legs are gonna be healed when you start missing dancing and running and jumping whenever you feel like it and when all you can think about is legsarefrigginhurtin. And being the innately cynical me, was extremely hard. So hard hard is an understatement.

The physiotherapist told me my back's tensed muscles from being overstrained were causing my knees to suffer, and not to dance for a season. I was assured that cracking bones were ok, and that as soon as my back was fine, my legs would be too.
The hospital doctor who had me do a knee xray told me it was the overstrained knee ligaments that were causing my knees to suffer, and not to dance for a season. I was assured my bones weren't broken or breaking and that crackings were ok.
My ballet teacher told me to consult the two above.

I didn't dance for a whole month(it felt way longer than it sounds), I faithfully did back exercises, faithfully rubbed cream on knees and muscles, faithfully ate supplement pills, faithfully worried some more. (All were prescribed by the doctor/therapist with the exception of the last) Slowly, slowly, my legs bettered, with much prayer, tears, and pain(duh) and random but bigugly bruises.

As my legs had continued to better, I was able to jump and dance again -with all paranoia, caution and knee wrapbraces things. Not that it still wasn't painful or creaky. Nevertheless I was glad to dance again. Glad to be able to be in the Christmas dance. But I rejoiced too soon. What I thought I heard when I was asked to join was that it was a balletic number. What I didn't know was that it was hard core.. Jewish. I'm not prejudiced, I really can appreciate many different styles of dance, and I do, but this... hmm... and I can't say the costumes are exactly flattering, on anyone, for that matter.

Thank God! Knees are much better. Less cracking, less dependent on bracewrap thing. But after all this jazz, I don't feel as fit as.. before the jazz. And usedtobevisible abs are almost close to invisible.

in which i wanna be a vegetarian

2009-11-01T05:07:00.000-08:00

Sick of everything else. Haha

So my lastt post was lastt month. My last update was 2-3 months ago. Since then, I've

shot for 4 days for the GreaterFaith conference, which included doing switching for the 1st time and also standing for 2+- hours straight for 4+- sessions and having 'jet lag'
gotten sick with fever right after, which included a really bad cold, thus depleting all the tissue in the house
celebrated some people's birthdays, which included walking the whole of centerpoint in 2+- inch heels and getting red eye
had my computer go into rehab twice, which included more that 2 weeks without ever using the internet or watching movies
watched the whole SYTYCD season5, which included some staying up late
lost and found my handphone for the second time, which included an awesome music concert
experienced several fiascoes, which included mortification as an ahem 'artist' in one, and a tow car in another
hurt leg =s worried like crazyy
found out I get to dance for Cwishmas =) the year end season now feels complete =p was just about to go nostalgic with the thought of not dancing -as I've been for the past several consecutive Christmases (except they were hiphop)

[edit]
So the story of the tow-in fastforward:

Valiant Jo decides to drive herself to class. Jo reverses into drain. Neighbor kakak watches amused. Passing cars stop and stare. Sis calls for help, driver calls boss. Help comes and tries to drive car to freedom. Kakak watches amused. Passing cars stop and stare. Neighbors discover they can't drive out to work. They take bus 11 instead. Two other guys come and try to carry car to freedom. Kakak watches amused. Passing cars stop and stare. Finally towguy gets called. Tow guy comes. Tow guy tows car to freedom. Everyone goes back to as they were. Jo discovers besides becoming broke she has gotten a tan from standing outside for the past few hours.
No, Jo has no driving phobia instilled, though it may be a while before she takes the wheel again.

in which it's been a decade

2009-10-15T01:46:00.000-07:00

Since I moved to live in KK
I was 7, kinda skinny, extremely taciturn, and xenophobic
Me 10 years later:
17, less skinny, less taciturn, less xenophobic
Oh how I've grown =p
Yea time zooms by.. Yea 10 years ago I wouldn't have imagined 10 years later to look like this..
What would be like 10 years from now.. (I don't like the sound of my then-age!) haha
I guess I'll find out then =)

Committing then to God

in which i freakin passed

2009-09-29T20:38:00.000-07:00

!Thank God!

I finally passed my jpj test!
*bigsmiledoesahappydancejumpsupanddownandcartwheels*
I now don't have to drive no more!
*bigsmiledoesahappydancejumpsupanddownandcartwheels*
Hahaha

I had a nice guy jpj officer, I didn't have to wait for my turn long at all, and while waiting I befriended my tutor's other student, a very lovely gregarious girl who generously shared with me her family tree, about all 11 siblings. My engine died more than twice, got horned at only once, and blur me used the wrong gears for the beginning part of the journey, but after passing, I don't care! =)

[edit]
last night i heard about this girl, who took the driving test 750 times and spent 10,000 in korean money... woww.. don't know how true but talk about perseverance... =o

in which i did the most horribible thing any sane conscious person should do

2009-09-28T06:58:00.000-07:00

I dropped my violin

='(
in the state of contrition overwhelmed with remorse

in which i'm an accountant

2009-09-17T08:06:00.000-07:00

I was going to post a real short entry consisting of a smile and a hi or a hi and a smile, just to blog something for the sake of.. my blog.. I think. But I found something else to herald. Haha

The other day I found this personality test in this site, and took it, for fun, to take a break from studying. It wasn't the pick the words that best describe you kind of test; it had different questions of personal habits, work habits, and others (some questions I thought were quite silly though). I finished the test, clicked the finish button or whatever that button was called (and I think the next part is guessable since the entry's title quite obviously adumbrates it). The results page loaded with Big Bright Bold Capital Letters : YOU ARE AN ACCOUNTANT!

I spent the next minute laughing at the page. Wth. Me accountant? *tries to imagine* ... *fails* The test is definitely faulty. =p Below the spastic accountant sentence were the adjectives -Submissive, Introverted, Concrete- Thinker. Well I guess that's roughly correct. But the following paragraph describing this personality in more detail was less roughly correct. It made me feel like a machine or something. The descriptions portrayed such a perfect (more like an overly quixotic nonexisting perfect) person-thing. Anyways yes, these personality thingys are not to be fully accepted. They are to be trusted askance. Haha.

The concrete thinker part they got kinda right though. I ponder endlessly, analyze both angles, and still cannot come up with a decisionanswerconclusion. It sometimes drives me crazy. And I need to decide whether to go or not -like now. I need to stop asking why and why nott. Ahh.

The personality system closest to describing me I think is perfectmelancholy and peacfulphlegmatic. DISC system doesn't really seem to fit me. =)

in which i should learn how to do my own makeup

2009-08-31T06:33:00.000-07:00

Haha. It would help greatly for ballet concerts, where makeup is a must. I did kinda do my own makeup for the last show on Saturday night though -with lots of help from audrey and chyng *smiles with pride* for the very first time! Ever! Haha sakai (I think that's the word for my dither and feeling of such an achivement.. lol). I only didn't dare stick my own false eyelashes. And surprisingly they weren't as uncomfortable as they sound.

Whole of last week = rehearsals for The Slave Princess (a ballet, if you haven't caught on or read the newspaper articles). Everday, Sun-Sat, lasting up to 11 hours. Legs were constantly tired- from standing. Why? Here are the dance roles in hierarchy: First are the lead prince & princess, then the 4 other princesses, then the other prince, then the slaves, then market sellers/court ladies & their partners, then there's me. Market & court crowd. So like the size of the role, that's how much we dance, but we have to stand on stage for the rest of the time. Feet killer. We did get used to it, but still it was tiring.

It isn't something you get to do often, so it was quite an experience (with a lil remuneration too), both inspiring and depressing -the same feelings that seem to be my frequent reoccurring leitmotifs in life, which you've probably heard about more than once if you have read my blog long enough if you don't know what I'm talking about nvm. But dwelling on the positive side of it, I have a new found respect for guy ballet dancers =) KL dancers' dancing is awesome =) They've all got the prettiestcoolest leos =) Made us KK people break the 10th commandment like never before. Hah.

Pics =) Ones from my camera.. so don't have any of rehearsals nor at friday's dinner. =C

26th, Day four of pracs

Yayasan is actually a really nice place to take pics
yes I just found out =p

27th, Dress rehearsal

There was this really gorgeouss sunset
sadly I only got blur shots of what was left of it

28th, After the Matinee show

Makeup was like the acting we had to do in the ballet- extremely histrionic. Mine was done extremely rushed, by about 3 diff ppl I think, and hence, cacat. Haha

29th, Final performance

After scrubbing makeup off we adjourned to @mosphere for afterparty

Lol flash was real bright ba

Being the last ppls to leave at about 12something am, of course we were collapsing =p

in which i failed

2009-07-31T07:18:00.000-07:00

My jpj test. *inserts angry face*

Jo how could you! *inserts another face*

I've never felt like such an inept oaf.

I don't think I've ever failed like anything (as in test/exam-wise) in my entire life. Ok except like math tests which aren't really a biggie. Plus it doesn't cost a 3digitnumber. But I just had to go and flunk this. *inserts another youknowwhat*
Though I'm usually not happy with my exam results, still, I'm used to getting scores which are like abovee Pass. Failing? Absolutely Foreign. So after the test I seriously felt shocked like the world had just collapsed on top of just me. Right now I still can not be lieve I fail ed my dri ving test. *depressed*

The jpj officer was no help at all. Once I saw that I got a freaking female I was like Greaattt. Or more like Groaannn. She wasn't even pretty. For the sake of being spiteful tehee. When we had to turn back I was so mad at that lady- no not lady, woman. Lady is just not appropriate for her. She was just so rude, I was so mad, albeit it wasn't all her fault. I was thinking, "Woman can't you just let me finish the route?? The only very worse thing that can happen is that you die. That's all!" She didn't let me go on. Apparently my driving was too awesome. *there really should be an angryface emoticonthing on the keyboard*

But it's not that I can't drive. It's the friggin saga or whatever the heck the car's called. I swear I'm a pundit driver with the kancil. But when it comes to that saga I'm a huge novice. Curse you saga! If that is your real name!
My blurness too, was a really great contribution -.-" of all times to be blur Jo, why then???

And when I told her I didn't speak malay, because I meant to explain why I was all question marks when she started haranguing me in BM after the engine died-ed. She immediately snapped back, "You're a Malaysian you have to be able to speak Malay." Yes I already know that woman.
Before I got out of the car she ranted about learning BM again. I thought she was gonna go on but thank goodness it only lasted 15minutes. Kidding. Anyway. Got out without a word (especially without a thankyou) and shut the door. Dammit I should have slammed it harder.

After that fiasco I was like God I Gotta pass the rest! Scraped through the hill part (which was actually my biggest prob, before I failed the laluan, that is). But thank God I did pass the other stuff. Though that seems so negligible right now cuz I friggin failed the laluan part! flubber

Spent the afternoon moping about the house. I couldn't study. I tried. "Tried". Besides the fact that I didn't pass, kept thinking of that stupid lady. Compared to this her, the qti guy is considered veryy nice, very gracious, although he laughed at me/my driving. If it just had been a suave civilized man, this post would probably have a less virulent tone.

Sobs. Now I have to retake that lovely test. And I'll have to go all by myself and be bored to death, with nobody to translate for me, and I reallyreallyabsolutelyabsolutely have to pass, and there goes another 100+ dollars. I feel stark impecunious already. :'(

What a way to start the weekend. And just after last weekend's GreatDepression. :(

[edit] What if I don't pass the next one? ah Ah AH! =s NO No no =x I shall die

in which i am a happy person

2009-07-14T08:17:00.000-07:00

Sometimes =p

Haha the point is, due to the not exactly cheerful previous entries, I sound like this very emo pique person, so I'm here to elucidate I'm really not. Not really. I actually can be cheerful. =o Lol. Not that those posts didn't mean anythin or were just for the sake of posting somethin. Of course, what's a blog without one -or two -or several sporadic emo entries, right? Haha.

Oh this is really pretty =)

in which now would be a good time for God to answer

2009-07-09T04:08:00.000-07:00

to or not to? should i or should i not? that is the question. questions. =o

in which i am extremely jealous

2009-07-05T04:38:00.000-07:00

Of ppl who can dance.

As in really dance dance. (Shaking clubbing Beyonce dancing doesn't count =p) When I see someone/people who are really friggin good, whether it's live, movies, shows, pictures, I am bloody green with envy. (Btw why green? Isn't green the color representing life or something?) Anyway. Especially when they're dancing professionally.. as in professional dancers.. whether it's hiphop, ballet/contemporary, ballroom, etc.
Not such a fan of guyballerinas though.. or ballerinos.. haha cuz of them in tights. =p But then if there were no gay looking guys in tights there won't be such a thing as a pas de deux, which would be sad. I'm not a very big fan of breakdancers either.. don't mind not being able to do that.. don't mind not being able to do belly dancing too.. it's ok =p (though I actually have done it before.. haha)
But yea, like when you see and hear those friggin good violinists and pianists.. and you suddenly feel so inferior, like crap, same goes with watching awesome dancers.. as much as it is awesome.

I know dance movies vids and stuff, besides entertaining, are meant to 'inspire' and stuff, but most of the time, it actually does otherwise.. sometimes.. alot.. cuz you know like you're never gonna be able to do that.. yet you know you can.. yet you don't.

Luv dancing nevertheless =)

in which i've had better weeks

2009-06-26T08:47:00.000-07:00

Wwwaaayyyyyyyyyyyyyyy.
Betterrr. Weeksss.

Flubberflubberj%dkje9/w2$$h3ri#e08zaxn>es*bla.
If only saying screweverything would help.. but it doesn't.
Screw everything.

Last night i spent my evening/night being stalked by some omg creep -.-" instead of being at carcasaun with them fun ppls -.-" no fair. Not to mention with them normal uncreepy guys. Thank God for sensible guys. Cuz that stalker is like ugh and has like nothing else to do or something.

And the week in general has seemed to be as bad as that. Sometimes worsee. Ushht.

Ok... talk about something nice... I can drive. Well sort of. Don't know what ppl fuss about when they finally get to the age when they can drive legally.. it's no biggie.. not really.. ok maybe a lil.. but I don't find parking fun.. whyy do we have to learn thatt.. haha=p

Ughflubberflubbergiustbla

in which it's fathersday

2009-06-21T08:31:00.000-07:00

hmmphffftt

camppics

2009-06-18T06:28:00.000-07:00

DAY1

the bus ride was so boring & giddifying. got a headache toward the end. especially on the way back.

the bus also had badd lighting =p

sunnies, white tops, jeanshorts, flipflops - my two superhot girlfriends =b

i'msoshortt

ppl who love throwing other ppl into the pool

the lamppost & green signboardthingy are such spoilers \=

sky's gorgeouss!

(val & i weren't supposed to be in frame)

they were so cute swimming i couldn't help it C:

NIGHT/EVENING2

yea they paktoh-ed whole camp =p

<3

neckless ppl

DAY3

roommate1

roommate2

he's tallerr =p

haha

he's so cute

& she's sho gorgeous

groupleader=) ban+jo. the other way round. haha

campcommander1

campcommander2

these aren't exactly alll haha. em & kim have permission to steal them pics. C=

camppost

2009-06-15T06:55:00.000-07:00

On the last day of every camp, the time when ppl give their testimonies and stuff, without fail, majority of them will dramatically begin with, "Honestly, *sheepish smile* I didn't wanna come to camp" ... totally cliche.. it's like the opening line.. almost as if they say it cuz they've nothing else to say. Then they'll go on to say "But now, I'm glad I did, blabla" (while ppl like me will be rolling eyes).
Now.. I'm one of those uncreative(lol) ppls. Ironic. Yea so rolls eyes at self =p Signed up like on the last day of registration, after persuasions.. and.. persuasions.. from ppls (I suck at explaining myself so I won't even bother to state why I reallyreally didn't wanna goo it doesn't matter now anyways) and so happened, my Sat, Sun, and more than half of my Mon classes were all canceled. It wasn't a yes I'll sign up, it was ok I'll sign up. But yea, I'm really glad this camp wass goodd. Definitely no regrets. =)

The guardianangelthingy was nice.. though my angel sent me juice when I already had a glass and food as I was finishing mine haha. =p I did this guardianangelsystem before in girls&boysbrigade camp like 8 years ago and liked it, so when I found out why we had to bring a gift to camp I was pretty excited. =)
The Eboard-encouragementboard thingy was fun too.. though ppl kept putting bigjo's notes under my name.. apparently our names look too alike. =p

Had some trouble turningoffthetap on the last night though.. But I have awesome friends.. who gave me generous, big hugs especially when I needed them. =)

My oh-so-special camp souvenirs were huge itchy mosquito bites.. on arms, legs, back(especially), side.. probably from sitting outside talking till 3somethingam on the 2nd night/morn. =) That was fun.. drinking sharing and discussing weird topics- from emo running away suicide stuff to gays and megan fox. Not forgetting Daryl's deep and spiritual thoughts. =p

Ooh the hilarious thing that happened, besides the exciting altar call moment, was on the first night, after the first session, before cell time. Em and I were walking to the toilet, and it was kinda dark, extremely quiet and echo-y. So we were walking, and suddensuddenly someone behind us said, "Hello?" And as I mentioned earlier, it was echo-y, hence the voice rang loud and clear in the almost total silence. Em immediately screamed. In her very high-pitched shriek! It too, echoed loud and clear. At the same time we turned around, to see a very stunned middle aged man frozen, staring at us wide-eyed. I managed a "Sorry!" before Em and I burst out laughing. After still freezing for a few seconds, the man timidly ask in a korean/japan-ish accent, "Uh, toilet?" We were on the verge of tears, already gasping for breath, as we pointed to the direction we were going. He then bowed like 90degrees like 3 times and apologized about the same number of times. Em, still laughing hysterically, ran off ahead. I, still laughing hysterically, returned profused sorrys as I walked after Em. The poor tourist, still in shock, did the same, except instead of laughing he was still bowing, profusely, to me.
We were in hysterics all the remaining way to the toilet. And the whole way back. But then Ps Sam was speaking again, and that was when we put to use all the self control we never even knew we had.

Goshhh. Hahahahaaha

Pics soon! Brace yourselves for another extremely lengthy post!

heaven's grocery store

2009-06-04T08:30:00.000-07:00

I was walking down life's highway a long time ago,
and one day I saw a sign that read, "Heaven's Grocery Store".

As I got a little closer the door opened wide,
And when I came to myself I was standing inside.

I saw a host of Angels. They were standing everywhere.
One handed me a basket and said, "My child shop with care.
Everything a Christian needs is in this grocery store.
And if you could not carry them all, you can come back for more".

First I got some PATIENCE. LOVE was in the same row.
Further down was UNDERSTANDING, needed everywhere you go.

I got a box or two of WISDOM, a bag or two of FAITH.
I couldn't miss the Holy Ghost, He was all over the place.
I stopped to get some STRENGTH & COURAGE to help me win the race.
And though my basket was getting full, I remembered to get some GRACE.

I didn't forget SALVATION for that was free.
So I tried to get enough of that to save both you and me.
Then I started to the counter to pay my grocery bill,
for I thought I had everything to do my Master's will.

As I went up the aisle, I saw PRAYER and had to put it in,
for I knew when I stepped outside, I would run into SIN.
PEACE & JOY were plentiful, they were on the last shelf.
SONGS & PRAISES were hanging near, so I just helped myself.

Then I said to the Angel, "How much do I owe?"
The Angel just smiled and said "Just take them everywhere you go".

Again, I smiled at him and said "How much do I really owe?"

The Angel smiled again and said,
"My Child, Jesus paid your bill a long time ago."

~ Ron DeMarco & Friend

It's 9:55 and I just ate dinner and I think I should go pack ...
See yas =)

in which me is praying for awesomenesss

2009-06-03T07:40:00.000-07:00

I know you can't live always thinking what if, but sometimes you can't help it! the thought's always there haunting you. and I know you're not supposed to base stuff on past experiences, but you can't help that either. naturally, the times when you were disappointed and let down, or the times when you just didn't like where you were in some situation, you'll instinctively try to do whatever so you'll never feel like that again. with that comes a fear/paranoidcautiousness of doing certain things and having certain expectations, in case in case you'll have to regret later on. so you're like crossing fingers, toes, eyes.. wondering whether it's this or that.. and no this thingy has no conclusion. . . a n y w a y. I'm notvery good at explaining myself. just comes out funny. =p

I just found last year's camp's pics! they've been missing since ages. never posted them up. at least I don't think so. (& most of them may look different cuz they're from like 4 different cameras)

I like this one =) covered in sand and muck and my pretty painted toenail is still pure white haha edit this to black and white and this can be used as a save the children of africa ad or somethin =p spot the leslie whoever took this pic is genius haha
we vain =p

random Meet the Robinsons (& its motto lol) is an awesome movie!! =p

in which i aint complaining

2009-06-01T07:29:00.001-07:00

Sometimes your head gets kinda full with all your thinkin thoughts, and you want somewhere to pour it all out or something, and hopefully clear your head a little, but when you find that somewhere (blog/journal/person), your 'supposed to be cramped head' goes BLANK.. What comes out isn't even close to what you're really thinkin and mean to express. It's all still throbbing in your head, but stuck there, not possible to put it into words or on paper =/ it's awful.

Having flu. And lil cough. I think it's just cuz there's lotsa phlegm, so yea I keep on having to cough and spit it out or sneeze it out. It's amazing and not to mention disgusting how much green stuff can be inside of you. For such a long period of time too - couple of weeks. And I have been not well since the beginning of last month. =s (fever like 2-3 times, cough flu cough flu) All my stamina has seemed to disappeared, when I do barely even strainous exercise I have a hard time breathing and I'd be gaspingg for air, I'm feeling lethargic alot, and now these past nights i can't sleep (that's what you call insomnia I think). Gosh hope I get well.. Completely well.. Real Soon.. I mean I Will get Completely well Real Real Soon Amen! I can't wait to feel like my normal and *ahem* fit self again =)

Mosquitoes have been biting mercilessly!! =/ Itchyitchy yayaa

May's over and gone. June's here.

hmm coincidences?

in which our bdays were again celebrated

2009-05-27T23:35:00.000-07:00

em! (obviously)

maxine (who is not in our cell)

me (obviouslily)

deb (= =)

mel (the other birthday person!)

me (again)

haha here the lemonade looks like puke

adelinee (who is also not in our cell)

bigjo (responsible for the dinner and all!)

we birthday girls whom the 'celloutingthingy' is for! =)
(try to ignore the weirdgreen plasticbag.. spoils the pic.. not that I don't love what's inside.. it's just that green doesn't do well with flash.. LOL.. thanks tons emm)

Don't know why this month, without thinking, I wish ppl their wrong age.. I wish them their last year's age instead.. they'll be like 'no, actually I'm 16 this year, not 15, but thanks for the bday wish'.. I'll be like 'dang did it again!' Anyway mel was one of them victims =p

There are more pics in dea's cam.. including the ones with herr in it.. I don't have any which is why she's mia here =s sniff

The three guys who go around singing (entertainers or whatever they're called) there are sodanggood =)

in which i can preach a sermon

2009-05-24T20:31:00.000-07:00

If you never knew, I don't love animals.. not so good with them.. not that I hate 'em.. just don't luvv 'em.. just like I'm not so good with babies and lil kids. Not that I'm equaling animals to human beans.

And this is the story of the cat =P
Like 2 weeks ago, I wake up in the morning, and started getting ready for piano class. So after brushing my teeth, I'm about to step out of the bathroom, when suddenly a cat runs past me from up the stairs.

(Now that cat has been hanging around my house for the past month, I think.. we don't feed it, at all, but it just hangs around in our compound alot.)

So it runs in the opposite direction from where I was still about to step out of the bathroom. So happens, that opposite direction was to my room. But for some reason, it stops at the doorway, (and I breath a sigh of relief), turns, and comes running back to me, but instead of turning left to go past me back down the stairs, it goes straight into my younger sisters' room. I then finally step out of the bathroom while the cat runs around the room, up on the bed and down. Then it finds the connecting door which goes to my bro's room, and starts running around there. But when it sees me, it runs back through the connecting door. It kept going back to pop its head through the connecting door, as if to see if I was still there. It actually looked really cute doing that. Anyways all this happened like superrr the fast.. as cats run fast, and don't seem to know how to walk. At least this one didn't.

I quickly went to call my older sis, as she was the only other one in the house. By the time we go to where the cat is, it's like climbing the window, clawing at the curtain and mosquito netting. After a while it falls, onto the bed, and runs around aimlessly again. It was impossible to even try catch it. It finds another window, does the same thing, and claws its way to the top. It then lies down on the railing on top of the window.

My sis goes to try to get it down, as she's the one better with animals, and she used to go claim she can speak cat =P The cat just like hisses and its fur kinda stands up and it wouldn't move. And we're like wondering why it doesn't just jump downn.. then we realizeee it's stuckk. Sis starts calling ppls to ask for advice.. while I take pics.. haha. Anyway in the end, we didn't go for piano, and the landlord came and got it down. Haha. As soon as he put the cat down at the front door it dashed off at the speed of lightning. Till today, we've never seen that cat again.

-before it got stuck

-after it got stuck

See what it did to the curtainsss

So lesson learned: Don't leave the front sliding door open ever.

Haha this reminds me of Ps. Kenneth Chin's message at last year's rally thingy.

in which i sing a song

2009-05-22T20:21:00.000-07:00

I am sixteen
going on seventeen
fellows will fall in line...

I am sixteen
going on seventeen
I'll depend
on You

Haha that's about all the lyrics I can remember.
I know it's too late for that song dy.. haha. But if pretending this is last week, It's the only time i can sing this song for real =P=P Oh last time it was forbidden to sing that song.. I guesss my mom just wanted her daughters to think of ourselves as very independent? =P=P

I used to think that birthdays are no big deal.. I mean you know last time when ppl threw big parties for themselves and stuff.. I used to think no need celebrate also can lar.. But you know what birthdays are a big dealll. It's the start of being a whole year olderr. Though the fact of being older may not be thatt welcoming =P nevertheless it's important. You only turn that age once. And I don't get those ppl who, when you wish them happybirthday, instead of saying thankyou, they go shhh don't let anyone else know it's my bday... It's like, what's wrong with youu??

Anyways yea so bdays are a biggie to me.. Ok maybe it's more like May bdays are a biggie =P just kiddin. Cuz it's my favorite month (I'm sure for obvious reasons) =) It's probably quite a number of other ppls favorite month too! Cuz I know like more than a dozen ppl born in this month.. and if counting the ppls I don't really know, there are like tonssss of ppl born this month. And we all are oh-so-awesome-ppls cuz we're born on this oh-so-awesome-month!! =) Haha

So here's what I did on my bday. Went on an exciting trip to outer space, visited Pluto, Venus, Mars, and McD, and came back. =) Honestly, I was hoping for an ohsoawesome one, it turned out to be the shortest day ever.

Ok last year, me wanted to go island on the 17th of May, but, due to the 'overly cool' weather, the trip was cancelled, so this year, me just wanted to go beach. No need island, just beach, to watch sunset or somethin. Then, compulsory ballet prac was put on the exact time one would go to see a sunset. Yea, I could ask the teacher to change it, but she'd be like, you want me to change the class so you can watch the sunset.... Em had a really funny answer to that though.. haha. But anyway it rained whole afternoon that day. Bummerbummer. So.. I've come to a conclusion.. I don't hate my birthday, my birthday hates me. No la.. not cursing myself.. it's just an observant observation? Haha

Those who didn't know or forgot and didn't get to wish me, well it's not your fault. Haha. =P
Thanks all you ppls for your birthday wishes and hugs!!! That was actually the best part of the day =)

in which rachmaninov had big hands

2009-05-12T21:09:00.000-07:00

I wanna play like themmmm!!!! (Minus the overly pulled faces and the stupidity) =P

God, help me to be ready and able to kick ass at diploma exam next week.
And Rachmaninov is a composer, in case you don't get it.
And I didn't know which ones to or not to post besides the 1st one, hence the many vids.

*coughsniffs* tissue is my best fwen

2009-05-10T03:32:00.001-07:00

I used to think, when I hear ppl complain or parents fuss about their kids about being sick for dayyss or weekkss, and I'd be like, scoffing, "how can anyone be sick for that long??" Not possible. They're just big exaggerating exaggerators exaggerating who maybe even want attention or something. Now am I being punished for ever thinking that way or for not sympathizing with all those sick-for-longs ppls? -.-" I feel like a volcano. I wanna explode. Like Peter did in Heroes. Or was it Nathan? Can't remember. I think it was Peter. Or both. Maybe then all the unwanted germs preventing full recovery too will explode and destroy and disappear.

JO, IF YOU DON'T BE BACK TO NORM HEALTH SOON, I'LL, I'LL KILL YOU!!!!

whatyougonnadoboutthat *taunts*

owth

in which i be drama tic or queen

2009-05-10T02:14:00.000-07:00

6th day of being sick. Since friggin tuesday! Come onn! =( When am I gonna be normal again? Cuz this sucks. Bad. This is the longest fever I've had in like my entire life. I'm prettyy sure. And, it's the second time this year. Seems to come every two months or something -.-" Fever is the worst form of sickness.. I think, I think.. as opposed to cough or flu la.. of course not comparing to like cancer osteoporosis or whatever stuff like that.

The first few days all I did was rest.. you know.. sleep and never wake up except to drink water pee take meds puke. Except puke la. I could watch movies though. But that's about it. And I'd be feeling superduper hot sweaty, then shivering, burning hot one moment (I bet if I held a raw egg in my hand it would seriously started cooking), freezing cold the next. *here's where KatyPerry's 'lovely' HotnCold song comes in* Then suddenly I'll feel soo much better, and start going YAY almost recovered, then sleep and wake up and I'm twice as sick. And it all goes back and forth and back and forth and on and on.

Then fri I started getting a headache too. That got worse and worse. And I still had to go for class. By evening I had such a stabbing headache.. felt like wanna die. DIE i tell you!! Literally like I was being stabbed in the head with a what-I don't know. ugh

I'm definitely better now. I can go online.. all the words have stopped swimming.. haha.

So I've been drinking like a whole swimming pool everyday. Seriously.

Is something terribly wrong with mee? =s It's not like I never drink water or exercise or eat. =/ Cuz I'm getting kinda paranoid. And I get paranoid-er and paranoid-er if I don't get completely well real soon or if I get another fever real soon.

There's nothing better than reading about my six days of christmas - I mean, yeaaa. You know.
I know. Most interesting update ever.The talk of the season.Whoopie.

Oh. Oh! Right. HAPPY MOTHERS' DAY!! You guys are all loved and appreciated =)